why are you looking at this?

2010-05-05T01:35:00.000-07:00

221) I think we'll just stop posting any more secrets here cause we've moved on. ;) Thank you so much predominantlysecrets for being such a wonderful blog, for me to post up little little secrets and my deepest feelings. But don't worry cause i'm moving on. Stay happy always YJ & Bat! :D

Anyway i'm @ tumblr now ;) http://www.thelast-miracle.tumblr.com

Take care!!

2010-03-24T06:02:00.001-07:00

220) it's been a long time since i've seen you. it's been a long time since i thought of you (i think) . Is that a good thing?

Or am i just used to missing you that now this feeling starts fading..

2010-03-21T06:16:00.000-07:00

219) Would you tell me what to do now lover? Do i let you go, or do i continue to hold on like an one-sided affair? I want to let go and be happy too, but it's hard. I can't move on. Would you assure me that everything's gonna be okay and be there for me then? Would you make me happy like how you used to? Would you answer my questions? :(

2010-03-21T00:07:00.000-07:00

218) Teach me how to hate you, teach me how not to care, and teach me you never wanted me so I can move on easily

2010-03-20T05:15:00.000-07:00

217) " He won't let you go, If he truly loves you the way he says he does, he'll come back to you. " Would you make this quote true?

2010-03-19T01:04:00.001-07:00

216) How come you like me, but you're afraid? :-( Do me a favour, gimme your reason.

2010-03-18T20:12:00.000-07:00

215) I always believe that if it's meant to be, it'll come to you one day. Same to you too my friend, if it's meant to be, love will come looking for you and you know you'll be truly happy. Whatever it is, i hope you'll be happy no matter what happens and look at things the bright side. :) Let things happen slowly, and let go if you have to.

2010-03-18T07:20:00.000-07:00

214) If this feeling could last, i want it to last for eternity. I pray that you'll be by my side. Make me love you, trust you, miss you once more, please )-:

2010-03-18T07:19:00.000-07:00

213) I was happy when F told me the when L asked you if you still loved me, you replied: I love her. It made me happy, F encouraged me to go out with you and stuff. But wait, why am i taking initiatives instead of you? I wonder if you mean what you said. :/

2010-03-17T23:35:00.000-07:00

212) If i knew earlier that i had to live with the memories of you & me alone in the end, i'd rather not have any memories with you in the first place. You get it? I'm feeling alone :(

2010-03-17T07:16:00.001-07:00

211) Recently, someone asked me, " if lover ask to be yours again, would you say yes? " Actually i want but i don't know if you would be happy. I'm depressed, cause i want you to be mine again.

2010-03-16T06:46:00.001-07:00

210) I'm tired of being strong, i'm tired of acting like everything's okay. I'm tired of hoping to meet you almost everyday, i'm tired of seeking your attention. I'm tired of being alone, i'm tired of missing you. Sigh, lover, i'm tired to be without you.

2010-03-16T05:20:00.001-07:00

209) Fuck. The song that you're listening to now, makes me feel that you've found a new girl already. Sigh, please tell me that the songs you're hearing don't relate to how you feel. :(

2010-03-15T21:45:00.000-07:00

208) Can someone please constantly remind me that, if i continue to dwell on the past, i won't be moving on and i won't be happy?

2010-03-15T20:24:00.001-07:00

207) I don't want us to become strangers. Like how i used to know you so well in the past, now i don't even know a single thing about you anymore. Did we just drift apart or has your love for me turned into hate?

2010-03-15T20:22:00.000-07:00

206) I still remember when you used to use hand signs and show " I Love You " to me, then i started to wonder why did you say you love me but you still left me in the end.

2010-03-15T20:21:00.000-07:00

205) It has been 4 months already lover, 4 months already. Why are you so hard to let go? :(

2010-03-14T18:13:00.001-07:00

204) Some of them told me you really loved me, if you really did, why did you have to leave me?

2010-03-14T06:44:00.000-07:00

203) Why do i feel that, your love for me has turned into hate. :(

2010-03-13T08:06:00.001-08:00

202) Even if we're not meant to be, why can't we last a teeny weeeny bit longer? :( Everytime I think of you, i will always get reminded of 3 dates. 13, 14 and 15. On the 13th - the day you asked me to be your valentine but you won't be in s'pore. 14th - when i rejected you, I'm so sorry. 15th - when i told you that i share the same feelings as you. I miss those times, you just jumped into my life, and jumped out of it again. Is this all part of love? Coz it's tearing my life apart. I'm so affected by just love itself. Do i even need it?

2010-03-13T07:51:00.000-08:00

201) It's like everyday i think of you, i feel your warmth and anticipate your presence but now i'm too afraid to even think about you for i know you won't like it when you know that i am, I'm afraid to feel your warmth, like that time i held your hand or when i sat beside you and our knees touch, or when you showered me with care and concern when i talked to you about things, I'm afraid that you will hurt me again, but now i can't even get hurt, becoz i already lost you. Now i don't anticipate your presence anymore, for i know you won't be needing me. :-(

2010-03-13T07:49:00.002-08:00

200) Everytime i close my eyes and the image of you just came to my mind, ever wondered how difficult it is to be missing someone you love so dearly but knowing that the person doesn't feel anything for you anymore? Ever wondered how the pain and torment felt, to lose someone you love.

2010-03-13T07:49:00.001-08:00

199) How come you left me at the point of time when i needed you the most? And i thought you were different. Looks like i have to agree, all guys are the same.

2010-03-13T07:46:00.001-08:00

198) You got me thinking of you all the time, don't tell me I've never crossed your mind?

2010-03-13T07:28:00.000-08:00

197) I'm afraid of deleting your messages, pictures and the little notes you saved in my phone, for fear that you will leave my life completely.

2010-03-13T07:22:00.000-08:00

196) Yknow, now i really regret telling you what happened on Monday morning while i was otw to schl. Actually, if i didn't tell you what happened, if i kept all my problems to myself, we'd still be tgt. I'll still be receiving your morning and night text, atleast i still get to express my love. Now you made things real clear to me. When i asked you how you were today, you told me that we're just friends, don't get too worried. And i was like: wtf? I think you forgot me easily, too easily. I miss you. :< :< :<

2010-03-12T20:51:00.000-08:00

195) You made me fell in love, you made me miss you, and now you're letting go? Now i'm crying in the inside. It's like you gave me false hope. So what if we had miscommunications, is that why you're giving up? Today would have been the first month we're dating. I still miss you, but i can't tell you. Now i can't even express my love. I got scared when i see you. You used to be the thing that made me so happy, but now i'm afraid, afraid that you'll get pissed off/annoyed when you see me. You made me held your hand, you made me care, you made me love you, and now you're asking me to let go. Whatda'ya want from me?

2010-03-12T18:52:00.001-08:00

194) I can't guarantee that you'll be much happier even if you come back to me.

2010-03-12T06:45:00.000-08:00

193) I'm tired of this world. I'm tired of everyone showing me their bloody attitude as if i can have any other choice. I'm tired of making everyone happy or pleased, without realising that at the end of the day, they're unhappy with me. I'm tired of caring and getting myself involved.

In short, i'm tired of being me. I don't like whatever i'm doing now. I'm not happy.

2010-03-11T06:31:00.001-08:00

192) Eventhough we're not together anymore, i miss you forever.

2010-03-09T05:54:00.000-08:00

191) At random times especially today, i start to think about you and me. How we celebrated our first month, how you would cover me with your bag under the rain, how you would help me and encourage me with my maths, and how you'd make me happy. Though they are small little things, but they mean a lot. They mean even more now cause i'll never feel the same ever again.

2010-03-09T05:43:00.001-08:00

190) I think i'm starting to hide my emotions. I don't show my emotions like how i used to in the past - by tweeting, blogging or even re-tweeting & posting up here ; I think twice before posting.

Why am i hiding myself? :(

2010-03-09T04:55:00.000-08:00

189) Happy 6th Month. I had this date noted down, again. No matter how hard i try to forget it, it just comes back to me whenever it's the 9th every month.

2010-03-06T09:15:00.001-08:00

188) You'll never know you're actually the reason for all the things i draw on my books, table and the one whom i'm referring in my sad love tweets.

2010-03-06T09:14:00.001-08:00

187) And at times, i'd start to think if anything would change even if you'd come back, and deep down, i feel that nothing would change. I think i will still hurt you again, despite my reasons.

2010-03-06T09:13:00.001-08:00

186) Actually i start to see no point in saying ' imissyou' over and over again cause i know you'll never come back anyway.

2010-03-04T03:16:00.000-08:00

185) I wish you were here now. Talk to me, at least? :(

2010-03-03T05:49:00.001-08:00

184) Now that i can't be by your side, please do take care of yourself, and do your best in everything. Try not to stress yourself too much, everything's gonna be okay. :) I'm happy. I hope you are too, alright?

2010-03-02T05:50:00.001-08:00

183) It's all the same thing over and over again - I miss you, I tell myself not to. I make up my mind to move on, i feel happy about it. Then i see you, I miss you again.

2010-03-02T05:21:00.000-08:00

182) I've been happy lately. :D But still, i hope i'm not hiding the fact that i still miss you and haven't move on.

2010-03-01T05:12:00.001-08:00

181) I still don't get it why do you have to act like you've moved on but deep down i know you haven't.

P.S. Happy 2nd Month predominantlysecrets! :)

2010-02-28T04:32:00.000-08:00

180) "Move on." its easy to say. but when it comes to really making my mind and really move on, it's tough. It's even tougher than i thought it would be. But i'm strong. :')

2010-02-28T04:31:00.000-08:00

179) I guess i haven't erased you from my heart and mind.

2010-02-28T04:30:00.001-08:00

178) I want you to know actually i've not forgotten about you, and i've still been counting every 9th and 16th, and my heart still beats faster everytime i see you. The feeling's still there, i guess that's why i haven't been moving on.

2010-02-28T00:06:00.000-08:00

177) I'm tired of having you in my mind no matter which sad love song i listen to.

2010-02-27T06:52:00.000-08:00

176) I don't know what to do now, L. I seriously don't. I tried liking another cute J guy but failed cause he can't be compared to you. I tried forgetting about you and moving on instead, but you kept appearing in my mind. I tried telling myself it was stupid to still hold on but i failed. nothing works. so how?

2010-02-27T06:20:00.001-08:00

175) it's been a long time since i typed HAHAHHA! and really laughed. The last time i remember was the last chat we had, and that was a few months ago, i guess.

2010-02-27T05:26:00.000-08:00

174) Actually i don't need you to see the weak side of me, or knowing that i'm strong. I need you to know i'm not superwoman, and that at times i really do need you to get me through.

2010-02-25T06:00:00.001-08:00

173) But, what's with deleting messages? :/ You're making me doubt you.

2010-02-25T05:57:00.000-08:00

172) Yknow, today was the sweetest. You're kinda like the sweetest things in the world, besides sisters obcoz. :> I wish I could hold your hand long enough, and never let go.

2010-02-25T05:56:00.000-08:00

171) Alot of things happened, but i know they care - Although i still kinda feel guilty that i made them 'suffer' with me. :-(

2010-02-25T05:54:00.001-08:00

170) What if one day you realise that my life sucks now, and its all because of you?

2010-02-24T06:08:00.001-08:00

169) I miss the way my heart beats when our eyes meet.

2010-02-24T06:06:00.000-08:00

168) Sometimes i really do wish that i have someone to text while smiling to, someone who would make me smile no matter what, someone to accompany me whenever i'm alone and someone who'll bear all my nonsense. But sometimes i think i just have to lose this special one to learn to appreciate those whom i love.

2010-02-23T06:58:00.001-08:00

167) Suddenly i start to feel that i'm seriously really dumb for all that i've did to seek your attention. But it's all because i miss you, i miss you lover, but i'm sure one day i won't.

2010-02-23T05:23:00.000-08:00

166) You're all i actually think about when i feel unhappy about life now.

2010-02-22T05:39:00.000-08:00

165) Sometimes i actually wish to faint right before you so that you'll have a chance to show me some concern. I.... just want your attention. FML.

2010-02-22T05:11:00.000-08:00

164) When the song plays, my heart twitched and my eyes swell with tears. It's the song that reminds me about you, and our sweet past.

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2010-02-22T04:55:00.000-08:00

163) Bet you didn't know how much i'd want you to be here whenever i'm all alone.

2010-02-22T04:54:00.002-08:00

162) I'll be happy when my friends have a loving guy who loves them, cause even though i'm not that lucky, at least seeing them happy makes me happy.

2010-02-22T04:54:00.001-08:00

161) There's something i'm really proud of, cause i've stopped wishing to meet you again. Though somewhere in my heart, i still do.

2010-02-20T23:11:00.000-08:00

160) I'm listening to the songs we used to listen together last time. These songs once told me how much you loved me and that i'll be happy cause you're here with me. I miss all those times, those great memories.

2010-02-20T23:08:00.000-08:00

159) I'm so thankful to have you as my best friend. When i'm lost and all alone, you were there to cheer me up. Thank you so much for telling me that you love me and that the fact that he's not with me now isn't a bad thing. Thank you so much. And i'm sorry if i've been a bitch this month. Sorry for anything we never had, and i'm really glad to have you as my best friend, B. ♥

2010-02-19T20:20:00.000-08:00

158) Although moving on is tough, it's really time to do so. No point holding on to broken strings, false hopes. You should move on, bestfriend. & No worries, there are plenty of fishes in the sea, there might actually be someone out there who's been there for you all along, wanting your love, like how you want his love. True?

2010-02-19T06:52:00.000-08:00

157) Deep down in me, you're my weakness. And you'll never know that.

2010-02-19T06:51:00.001-08:00

156) Well, i keep talking about moving on and being stronger and i don't actually need you in my life anymore. But i didn't know that i haven't been moving on yet. Why are you so hard to forget?

2010-02-19T06:43:00.001-08:00

155) I keep wondering what happened but actually, even if i do know, there's nothing i can do.

2010-02-19T06:41:00.000-08:00

154) People do change. But if they changed for the better or the worse, it's up to you to decide. Totally agree.

2010-02-19T06:39:00.000-08:00

153) I was so disappointed when i saw your change right before my eyes. I was so worried why you changed so much.

2010-02-19T05:31:00.000-08:00

152) Standing beside you today make me fall in love with you even more, can't you see you're special? And i love you. And you're the reason why I've been smiling. And he's the reason why I've never been able to be this happy for so long. I wish i could tell you that i love you, but you're not ready to hear such things. One step at a time.

2010-02-17T03:52:00.001-08:00

151) I didn't get to see you today.

2010-02-16T00:14:00.001-08:00

150) It's been 3 months lover, 3 months. I wonder if you remember.

2010-02-15T22:40:00.000-08:00

149) It took me so long to realise, that you're never coming back anymore.

2010-02-15T04:06:00.001-08:00

148) gone-andforever.bs.com

2010-02-14T22:32:00.000-08:00

147) what if i really like you? ^^

2010-02-14T22:11:00.000-08:00

146) I keep hoping time could rewind back to when we were still together. But i've never thought about how i could make it better even if time would rewind. I never thought that actually, even if time rewind, we'll still end up the same. So why do i want time to rewind so much?

2010-02-14T06:38:00.001-08:00

145) I'm moving on already baby. I really am. Now i think J's cute. :)

2010-02-14T02:10:00.000-08:00

144) Happy Valentine's Day lover, though i want you to be my valentine very much, but that will never happen.

2010-02-12T22:33:00.000-08:00

143) Asking me that was very sweet. :> "Would you wanna be my Valentine?" Hahahaha! But this question after a terrible heartache? I'm not prepared I'm sorry.

2010-02-12T22:30:00.000-08:00

142) I feel happier that I've given up on you after crying so badly, but yknow. I can never forget our friendship and memories.

2010-02-11T05:58:00.000-08:00

141) Have fun lover, all the best, have a safe trip and come home soon. This is my secret cause i dare not tell you so.

2010-02-11T05:45:00.001-08:00

140) Your departure saddens me. Now i feel so lost, and alone. And that nothing is making me await for a better day.

2010-02-11T05:27:00.000-08:00

139) A part of me wants to move on and ignore everything about you. A part of me wants to wish you a safe trip, and another little part of me - my heart, has a lot to tell you.

2010-02-11T03:54:00.000-08:00

138) My greatest valentine's wish, You.

2010-02-10T06:34:00.000-08:00

137) I even fear looking right into your eyes when we finally met. Sucks.

2010-02-10T05:04:00.000-08:00

136) Why were you so cruel. Why did you leave me after you made me fall in love with you? Why didn't you show that you miss me but you made me miss you all alone? Why did you leave me when i needed you the most? Why is love so unfair. Why can't i move on? :(

2010-02-09T07:31:00.001-08:00

135) I always ask myself, what if one day i'm gone. What if i disappear from the world suddenly. Would you even care?

2010-02-09T06:37:00.000-08:00

134) What should i do now. I can't get over you. The time we spent were short, but memorable. I don't know why you can't seem to stop passing through my mind. I want to move on.

2010-02-09T05:23:00.000-08:00

133) It's really time i should start to move on.

2010-02-09T05:18:00.001-08:00

132) Many people encouraged me to talk to you. But i just don't dare to do so. Why? cause i don't know why. :(

2010-02-09T04:54:00.000-08:00

131) I wonder if i still appear in your mind. I miss you lover, but the thing is.. i dare not tell you so.

2010-02-09T04:07:00.000-08:00

130) We could have spent our 5th month together today. I still remember, do you?

2010-02-08T05:27:00.000-08:00

129) Do you remember what is the date tomorrow? 9 February 2010.

2010-02-07T07:30:00.000-08:00

128) Jiayou. You can do it, i believe you will. But don't stress yourself too hard. For whatever reasons it is, do your best and everything's okay. :) Even when you have no one else to turn to anymore, just remember i'll still be here, waiting to be by your side. Good luck.

2010-02-07T07:09:00.000-08:00

127) I added a formspring on my blog. And everytime there's a random thing sent in, i'll wonder if it's you. I hope it's you. I hope you will just send in some random question..

2010-02-07T06:52:00.001-08:00

126) Ever since you left, i told myself i got to be happier and i got to move on. Ever since you left, you took away a little part in me - part of my happiness & courage. The courage to move on and the courage to face every challenges that's coming my way now.

2010-02-07T06:43:00.000-08:00

125) I'd like to give you some care and concern. but hey, where did my courage go?

2010-02-07T06:10:00.001-08:00

124) Why don't you just.. talk to me. :(

2010-02-06T08:41:00.000-08:00

123) I thought of the times we used to have and i ended up smiling to myself. Don't you know you made a huge difference in my life? Yes, you did. You made me grow. You seriously did.

2010-02-06T08:28:00.000-08:00

122) It sucks to love someone who doesn't love you anymore. It sucks more to know that, the things you've been holding on to.. will never come true. It sucks the most to miss you.