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Friday, January 1, 2010 @ 8:47 PM 14) Dear D, I know you've been lying to me about loving me when we were together. I'm sorry, it must've been really hard on you. I know you were just playing with my feelings, i'm sorry to make you have so much trouble while you're with me - Just trying to make me happier. Everyone said the same thing: Get over that jerk, you should find someone better. Everyone said that, everyone except me. I can't deny that I used to curse you, mean mean thing. I cursed you just to make myself feel better, that you're NOT the one for me. I agree with whatever EVERYONE said. But i was wrong, about calling you those words. Because i feel that no matter what i do, you'll always be on my mind, and i feel your presence eventhough we're not together. I remember that once we had fever on the same day, and when you had H1N1, i was worried sick. I know you were flirting with that girl from regent when we patched, because you didn't think of me after your Camp. I know i suck at being your girlfriend, what's with my awkward moments with you. Going to school only once when we've been tgt in total of 1 month, 2 weeks and 4 days this whole year. I feel like i was a lousy girlfriend. I really regret not trying. I know i wasn't the best, i know you weren't too. You are a player, everyone says that. But why can't i be the one for the player? O.O It hurts like fucking mad when you asked me for break. Without giving me reasons, and one month later, you're tgt with another girl. I know who you're going for now. And apparently she's my goodfriend. I'm sorry D, I'm sorry that i can't let go. But i've got to tell you that I really like you, more than a friend. And i hope that you'll feel the same way too, one day. And you'll realise how important i am to you. But if that day never come, either i'll wait for you, or for true love to come by. Luv you alot. |