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Saturday, January 30, 2010 @ 9:35 PM 102) I felt happy when you sms me. You bring joy to my life. :/ Too bad I didn't show you how much i appreciate your love. )-: @ 8:07 PM 101) I think i need someone to push me along. To remind me to move on and keep me away from thinking. Now i'd admit i can't do this alone.. @ 8:05 PM 100) I think i contradict myself. P.S. Tmr will be the first month Predominantlyscrets was established! YAY.
@ 8:08 AM 99) It just makes me worry even more when you're online in other ways (ebuddy mobile or wtv). Cause in the past, when you do, you must have something important to tell me, or that it's because you wanna talk to me even when you're lazy to turn on the computer. And now, cause you aren't talking to me, i'm pretty afraid you're talking to some other girls.. Paranoid much? AND I'M SUPPOSED TO BE MOVING ON. :( @ 1:07 AM 98) I hope this lasts cause i don't wanna think of you, anymore. :') I think i'll be happier. Hey, i'm strong. :) @ 1:04 AM 97) You know what. I think i've made up my mind. I'll have to stop blogging, tweeting, stalking, or even have any more thoughts about you anymore. I'm happy cause i'm working really hard and i'm a step nearer to moving on. :) Friday, January 29, 2010 @ 5:11 AM 96) I worry everyday i might lose you to someone else. But actually you're free to be someone else's. But i'm just afraid. :( @ 5:09 AM 95) I don't know why but i feel it's been such a long time since we've talked. When we meet, we didn't say Hi. When we walk past each other, it's like we don't know each other. I hope you wouldn't feel that i'm ignoring you or whatsoever. I hope more that you aren't doing these cause you want me to move on.. I hope you know, i'm afraid to talk to you. :'( Thursday, January 28, 2010 @ 6:01 AM 94) I feel tired everyday. Where are you? :( @ 5:37 AM 93) I wonder why am i not moving on. Fuck the world, so much. @ 5:36 AM 92) Hey. You know how much it hurts to see you now. :( Tuesday, January 26, 2010 @ 8:21 PM 91) Sometimes, i can't help but have the desire to receive your sms cause they never fail to make me smile and cheer me up. How do i say? I miss you. @ 6:25 AM 90) Actually i haven't changed my password cause i want you to hack into my account and read all these stuffs. Including my private blog, which is going to be opened & closed. @ 6:22 AM 89) Days seem to pass really slow without you in my life. Monday, January 25, 2010 @ 6:25 AM 88) Last night, i suddenly thought of the time when i actually called you in the middle of the night during the Guides camp. & i was so happy and excited when i was allowed to get my phone. That was a sweet memory! ♥ @ 6:12 AM 87) Whenever i'm feeling down or alone or whenever i'm lost, i'd think of you. Do you? @ 6:11 AM 86) I miss the times when my happiness used to be your joy. Sunday, January 24, 2010 @ 5:45 AM 85) I'm pretty sick of sad love songs but i'm still hearing them. Cause they remind me of you. And the thoughts of you made me feel like... crying :'( @ 4:59 AM 84) WTF I MISS YOU. :'( :'( I JUST WANT YOU TO BE HERE. MY LIFE IS IN A MESS NOW. HEY LOVE, I KNOW I WANT YOU TO BE READING THIS. PLEASE, I WANT YOU TO KNOW IT'S NOT THAT I DIDN'T LOVE YOU. IT'S THAT I DIDN'T SHOW. :'( @ 3:46 AM 83) I don't care how afraid i am to let you know this link and show you the secret. I just wanna let you know. And that's all i gotta do. I have to let you know. I must let you know. Saturday, January 23, 2010 @ 7:23 PM 82) I feel i'm such a big ass attention seeker. I really want your attention. @ 7:16 PM 81) Sometimes i wish i would fall sick. really really sick. terribly sick. so that you may come and ask if i'm okay, or show some concern. why the hell am i hurting myself to get your attention? :( @ 2:53 AM 80) Valentine's day is coming. And we've never celebrated it once before. Friday, January 22, 2010 @ 11:58 PM 79) I wonder if you know how much I love you. )-: I love you so much that I'd rather you play with my feelings for me just to be with you than anything else. )-: @ 11:55 PM 78) Promise me we'll take a photo one day together. And then i'll keep it & never delete it. But too bad, you're not going to. You don't know this blog. )-: @ 9:08 AM 77) One day, I'll give you this blog for you to read. One day, I'll let you know my secrets. One day, I'll say I love you again. @ 9:07 AM 76) Everyday, I'll silently say I love you to you. @ 9:07 AM 75) I feel sad whenever I'm tempted to take a picture with you but am afraid to ask. I'm so disappointed in myself. @ 9:05 AM 74) It really affects me when there's other girls liking you. )-: I will automatically hate her. They affect me. You affect me. )-: @ 8:59 AM 73) Yknow what, i keep staring at you today. & I realise how much I like you ever since 1 year 2 months ago. Sorry, dearest. But my feelings grew stronger day by day. It fades at times but just a little. I still love you alot. If only you were mine once more. . . @ 5:57 AM 72) hey lover, i want you to want me. Thursday, January 21, 2010 @ 4:49 AM 71) Why is it that the only person who can mend my heart is the person who broke it, that is you? :/ @ 4:44 AM 70) I really want you to be mine once again. I really miss those days we were really awkward together, but i love it when i'm around you. @ 4:14 AM 69) I know you were trying to flirt with me. I know, i know. But i just can't help but to feel good. )-: I really do. I enjoy talking to you so much. )-: I'll take chance to find you and go talk to you. Really. You said my feelings fade but it hasn't all along. >: I miss you alot. I don't mind you playing around with me. 1 year 2 months and still counting. I'm still counting. I don't mind you telling everyone the 1 year 2 months joke. Really, i don't. When people ask me what it meant, i felt happy. 1 year 2 months and still counting, dear. I love you. )-: I do. It doesn't matter if you punch me on my arm and helped me rub it, it doesn't matter if the punch hurt. I just wanna stand beside you. 1 year 2 months, you reminded me of everything. I was really tempted to answer you: I like you too when you asked me: What if i told you i like you. I really just shrugged. I love you so so so much it hurts. @ 3:12 AM 68) I removed everything that shows my feelings - blog profile, msn nick-icon, personal message. That's because i want you to come and ask me how have i been. @ 3:07 AM 67) Hey my dear Lover, i hate it so much when i miss you. Wednesday, January 20, 2010 @ 5:03 AM 66) Actually, I'm not okay. :'( :'( @ 5:01 AM 65) I feel i'm pretty desperate for the next love to come by cause i don't see myself moving on this way. @ 3:39 AM 64) I thought i had given up totally on you when fate didn't allow us to meet anymore. Till the past few days when i keep bumping into you, i realised i was wrong. Moving on wasn't as easy. You make my heart beat at the sight of you, & you make me worry whenever your name's mentioned. Can't letting go & moving on be easier? :(
Monday, January 18, 2010 @ 3:28 AM 63) I'm tired of being happy. @ 3:08 AM 62) So much of fate playing tricks on me? Sunday, January 17, 2010 @ 7:03 AM 61) Everyday i wish for fate to allow us to meet again. Saturday, January 16, 2010 @ 11:24 PM 60) Sometimes i really wish you were reading all these secrets i posted. I wish. @ 11:24 PM 59) I don't get it. I don't get why don't you ever show that you miss me. I miss you so much and the times we've had and shared. I miss you, and that sucks. @ 11:23 PM 58) I hate it. I hate it when i kept dreaming about you, when i kept having you across my mind, when you never seem to leave my thoughts. I hate it now i've lost the chance to be with you again. Baby, why don't you be mine? @ 11:22 PM 57) I keep saying i wanna move on, but my mind won't let me. I keep saying i'd be happy as long as you are, but it hurts to see when i'm not the one who's giving you happiness. @ 8:44 AM 56) Do you remember our number? I remembered i told you that i'll always rmb our number. Honey, i swear i didn't break my promise. 0604092136459. @ 8:34 AM 55) Sometimes the only thing I wish was for me to hold your hand then let it go. @ 6:14 AM 54) Today's the 2nd month. Goodbye, 16th. @ 5:42 AM 53) Everytime i see you online, why don't you say Hi? Everytime you send me a sms, i'd reply as quickly as possible cause i'm afraid that will be the last time you would ever text me. Hey, do you know how much i've been missing you since you left? @ 4:58 AM 52) Do you know? I cleared the old messages in my inbox but i kept all of yours. And i regret ever deleting some of them in the past when we were still together. @ 4:57 AM 51) Everytime when your name's mentioned, i get really excited over it. I guess i didn't feel a thing, so that i'd know i've moved on. Friday, January 15, 2010 @ 7:22 AM 50) What if you're still part of me? Everytime i listen to songs, i just so happen to think about you. I feel really sad inside because I've been trying to let go. If we're still together, it'll be our 9th Month together. :/ I regret. Regret loving you too deeply. I miss the times when we always sms till 2AM in the morning. It's been great knowing you D, and i wonder if you know that no matter how fucked up you are, there's always this girl waiting for your love. :/ @ 7:16 AM 49) I like it when you talk to me. I feel good. And you were really hyper today. But i'm sorry I've been ignoring you in school. And when you said you saw me today, i felt happy that you did. @ 6:31 AM 48) I happen to hate my bestfriend. Wednesday, January 13, 2010 @ 6:18 AM 46) I put a smile on my face and pretend Im ok in front of you, but when Im alone you race through my mind and my smile fades a bit because we still arent together again. Im young but Ive known from the moment I told you I loved you I wanted that to last forever. You are and forever will be 'the one'. -via blogsecret.tumblr.com
Monday, January 11, 2010 @ 5:48 AM 46) My best friend's boyfriend just told me the true side of my ex boyfriend, who's someone i can't forget now. I feel so lost and shattered, i feel like i've lost my point in life. @ 4:30 AM 45) I kept thinking you'd still love me, but i was wrong.. Sometimes your actions made me feel like you do, sometimes you make me feel as though i'm such an irritant in your life. So now what? Please tell me. :( @ 4:26 AM 44) I didn't know i was living in such a lie. I didn't know loving you was such a big mistake. I didn't know why i couldn't move on. Till someone told me you weren't as wonderful as i imagined, you weren't that great like the past. My heart shattered.. Sunday, January 10, 2010 @ 6:15 AM 43) I secretly count our monthly anniversaries. Yesterday was the 4th month. @ 6:14 AM 42) We were only together for 2 months and 7 days. The time may be short, but it's a great memory. But now why can't i forget you? I wanna move on, please. :( @ 6:09 AM 41) Once i lost you, i feel that the world's been sucky to me. Why was i able to move on so much easier in the past but now it seems so tough? WHY? WHY!? WHY!?!?!?!?! @ 6:09 AM 40) Why don't you just tell me you miss me too. Saturday, January 9, 2010 @ 10:55 PM 39) Sometimes i hope you'll ask me for stead because I don't know why but i'm desperate for a boyfriend. @ 10:54 PM 38) I hate the feeling of blood dripping down my vagina during menstruation. Friday, January 8, 2010 @ 9:45 PM 37) I hate it when my parents abuses me. It makes me mad and then i start abusing myself without realising. -.- @ 9:44 PM 36) I felt real good after ignoring you, surprisingly. But you did the same too, and i was really sad. @ 6:30 AM 35) I don't even dare to look you in your eyes now. :( Thursday, January 7, 2010 @ 4:44 AM 34) I hate my desperate need for your attention, love and affection. I also hate when I ruin my chances of attaining and maintaining these things from you when I hurt your feelings. Basically, I just hate the way I get when I'm around you. Like, fuck you for being everything I want. -via blogsecrets.tumblr.com
Wednesday, January 6, 2010 @ 6:29 AM 33) School was fucking boring without you now. I don't await to school cause i'm no longer meeting you. I don't await to school cause i'm no longer receiving smses from you to remind me to hold on. I miss you. Tuesday, January 5, 2010 @ 3:20 AM 32) My wish everyday is to see you. And my wish one day is you to come up and ask me.. anything. I'd be just glad.. @ 3:19 AM 31) You kept walking past me today, actually I saw you and my heart was racing, my mind was messed up.. But i just acted as though i didn't see you.. What's with me? :'( :'( @ 3:17 AM 30) Would you just use harsh words on me to make me move on? I'm afraid i might fall in love with you again. Monday, January 4, 2010 @ 7:06 AM 29) I just want to cry my heart and soul out to you. See if you really care. -via blogsecret.tumblr.com
@ 7:03 AM 28) I hate how I always think you're there for me. -via blogsecret.tumblr.com
@ 6:55 AM 27) I love you. But i shouldn't. That's where i suck at. @ 6:54 AM 26) Would you just walk up to me and say " Hi, How have you been? " to me someday? Cause i fear too much.. @ 6:53 AM 25) Dear Love, I wanted so much to see you everyday but now that i saw you already, i kept avoiding... What the hell am i doing? :( Sunday, January 3, 2010 @ 6:33 AM 24) Though i say i'm done with wishing & awaiting to meet you again, i still hope to just, meet you again. I seriously wonder when will i start to really move on, without you on my mind. Saturday, January 2, 2010 @ 10:09 PM 23) I wish something would happen to you that you would realise how fucked up you are. @ 10:07 PM 22) Well, if you were to ask me. I didn't know why I liked you in the first place. You were such a fucker, you belong to those prostitutes. Didn't know why I liked a fucker like you. Too bad I'm starting to hate you but at the same time still love you. You are such a joke. Don't think I'm gonna laugh at your lame jokes ever again. I'm never saying hi to you anymore. @ 10:05 PM 21) Hate it when you reply things to me harshly. :'( Can't you see I'm trying? @ 10:03 PM 20) ZZZ. didn't know you could be sucha jerk. Why the fuck did you reply to my PM. Fuck you upside down! _l_ - @ 5:52 PM 19) I'm trying to stop thinking of you.. But what the fuck is stopping me? @ 6:12 AM 18) I feel sad for us when i read about other people's love story. Why can't we become the envy of others instead? Friday, January 1, 2010 @ 11:46 PM 17) I wanna say thankyou to brother, V, for everything but I don't know how. I can't help him when his relationship sank, i feel kinda useless. He tried helping me talk to D, but i did nothing? :/ I didn't even tried.. I feel. I'm sorry Brother. But I hope you'll be strong. - This is random, suddenly thought of V helping me talk to D. :> Thank you V. @ 11:03 PM 16) My biggest secret is that i love you. @ 11:00 PM 15) After it rained, i drew smiley face on the ground using water from the tip of my umbrella. Then i questioned myself: "Why am i drawing smileys when I'm not even happy?" @ 8:47 PM 14) Dear D, I know you've been lying to me about loving me when we were together. I'm sorry, it must've been really hard on you. I know you were just playing with my feelings, i'm sorry to make you have so much trouble while you're with me - Just trying to make me happier. Everyone said the same thing: Get over that jerk, you should find someone better. Everyone said that, everyone except me. I can't deny that I used to curse you, mean mean thing. I cursed you just to make myself feel better, that you're NOT the one for me. I agree with whatever EVERYONE said. But i was wrong, about calling you those words. Because i feel that no matter what i do, you'll always be on my mind, and i feel your presence eventhough we're not together. I remember that once we had fever on the same day, and when you had H1N1, i was worried sick. I know you were flirting with that girl from regent when we patched, because you didn't think of me after your Camp. I know i suck at being your girlfriend, what's with my awkward moments with you. Going to school only once when we've been tgt in total of 1 month, 2 weeks and 4 days this whole year. I feel like i was a lousy girlfriend. I really regret not trying. I know i wasn't the best, i know you weren't too. You are a player, everyone says that. But why can't i be the one for the player? O.O It hurts like fucking mad when you asked me for break. Without giving me reasons, and one month later, you're tgt with another girl. I know who you're going for now. And apparently she's my goodfriend. I'm sorry D, I'm sorry that i can't let go. But i've got to tell you that I really like you, more than a friend. And i hope that you'll feel the same way too, one day. And you'll realise how important i am to you. But if that day never come, either i'll wait for you, or for true love to come by. Luv you alot. @ 5:58 PM 13) My greatest new year resolution is to have the courage one day and say ' fine, it's over, i'm going to be happier. Time to move on, everything's gone. No more emo tweets, no more secrets about missing you, & no more blogging about you anymore. ' When will that day ever come? @ 8:51 AM 12) I'm leading such a miserable life now I don't have you with me. I'm tired of checking your profile everyday, checking up your friends' blogs to get some info on you. & acting so much like a stalker, staring at your MSN everyday, posting up secrets about you here, but you didn't seem to realise anything. @ 8:48 AM 11) I wanted to ask you so many things but all I did was to stare at our conversation, without any words. Then I knew you'd be gone. @ 7:50 AM 10) I like to post crap here because it'll get posted up unlike Sgsecrets's! -__- Anyway, I am free to speak my mind here. But i wish the guy would read this. All of this. @ 7:46 AM 9) " IPHONE 3G SUCKS. TOUCHSCREEN SUCKS. FUCK WHOEVER WHO USE TOUCH SCREEN. SONY ERICSSON FOR THE WIN. " - I'm afraid if I post this up in my blog, alot of people will kill me. @ 7:43 AM 8) I'd like to have a whole day with you. If you'd allow. Let's go JP :> @ 7:38 AM 7) I'm listening to songs i used to sing along whenever I was with you. I am thinking about the past. The past that was meant to be forgotten. Hey D, i've known you for One year & 2 months, are you happy for us? Hey D. Did you know i was tempted to ask you if you could still rmb how WE used to Countdown together, like last year. And hey D, did you remember about the times when we chatted like nothing's gonna stop us. & Do you still remember how strong i feel towards you. D? Do you? :/ @ 6:41 AM 6) I know holding on to the past makes me sadder & un-stronger.. But sometimes I can't help but to miss you and hope you'll come back again someday. @ 6:22 AM 5) Now that you're finally talking to me on msn.. Do you know how much I want to ask you? Like if you've been missing me like I do. But I know it'll sound wrong.. @ 6:19 AM 4) I know you know that my PM refers to you, but why do you have to act like you don't know? What the fuck is your problem, idiot!!!!!!? @ 4:31 AM 3) Sometimes words just can't describe how much i miss you. I've had enough of telling myself to move on. @ 3:12 AM 2) I have confused feelings and gets jealous over you & you. So what the fuck am i suppose to do? I fell in love for two guys & i don't know whether it's just infatuation or not. What am i to do when i get jealous and starts killing people? |